Life and Death, Today
When I think about all of the events that I still have to go through in my life, it seems amazing to me. I sometimes feel like I have done, oh so much, but then I think about the fact that Emersyn hasn't even gone to kindergarten and Cody and Skylar still need to graduate High School, visit colleges, go to prom, etc etc, that I am amazed at how much life I still GET to live.
I am also amazed at how much sadness that I still have to experience. My two best friends, my family, my grandmas, a grandpa and parents are all still alive and so many of them, I have yet to lose. I have so much to "go through" and all of it I will go through with my husband, Jim. Though I can think of no other person I would rather lean on, I can't fathom what those days will feel like. I can't imagine how difficult being there for him will be, how much I will want to take his pain away, and won't be able to.
But then there are my grandchildren that will be born, and I will be able to look over to Jim and share that warmness in my gut, the beam of love we will all share at that glorious moment. How blessed we will be to share that happiness, that love. I can't imagine anyone else in the world I would rather enjoy that moment with.
The reason all of this has been brought to my attention is because Cody and Skylar have a new sibling. Skylar ran out of the house crying this morning because her dad had a new baby last night. She was so happy tears were streaming down her face and I felt so blessed to be next to her as she received this glorious news. I was so excited for their new family and this new baby, that I was glowing with happiness for all of them.
This morning I also learned that one of my dear friend's dad passed away. She is the kindest soul and has the biggest heart in the world and today she is sad, helpless and I am sure, lost. She has thousands of memories, hundreds of emotions and countless thoughts rushing through her mind right now and there is nothing that I can do to help.
Life beginning and life ending.
Moments in our life we will never forget. Moments in our life that change us and our world forever. I remember when I had a breast cancer scare I reassessed my life. I think when you experience things like that you look around and really ask yourself, "is this where I want to be if this is it?" and it wasn't. So I changed things.
Now I know, if it ended tomorrow, this is exactly how I want it to be, where I want to be and who I want to be with. I know that if it was all over tomorrow, I have done my best, I have lived my life and if Jim is the one holding my hand, everything is perfect. I know that I will be in good hands through the good and the sad, the new and the ending and everything in between.
Today life has begun for one family and changed for another. I am experiencing emotions for both. I am glad Jim will be home soon so that I can work though it all, as it is just the beginning of so much that is ahead of us.
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I am also amazed at how much sadness that I still have to experience. My two best friends, my family, my grandmas, a grandpa and parents are all still alive and so many of them, I have yet to lose. I have so much to "go through" and all of it I will go through with my husband, Jim. Though I can think of no other person I would rather lean on, I can't fathom what those days will feel like. I can't imagine how difficult being there for him will be, how much I will want to take his pain away, and won't be able to.
But then there are my grandchildren that will be born, and I will be able to look over to Jim and share that warmness in my gut, the beam of love we will all share at that glorious moment. How blessed we will be to share that happiness, that love. I can't imagine anyone else in the world I would rather enjoy that moment with.
The reason all of this has been brought to my attention is because Cody and Skylar have a new sibling. Skylar ran out of the house crying this morning because her dad had a new baby last night. She was so happy tears were streaming down her face and I felt so blessed to be next to her as she received this glorious news. I was so excited for their new family and this new baby, that I was glowing with happiness for all of them.
This morning I also learned that one of my dear friend's dad passed away. She is the kindest soul and has the biggest heart in the world and today she is sad, helpless and I am sure, lost. She has thousands of memories, hundreds of emotions and countless thoughts rushing through her mind right now and there is nothing that I can do to help.
Life beginning and life ending.
Moments in our life we will never forget. Moments in our life that change us and our world forever. I remember when I had a breast cancer scare I reassessed my life. I think when you experience things like that you look around and really ask yourself, "is this where I want to be if this is it?" and it wasn't. So I changed things.
Now I know, if it ended tomorrow, this is exactly how I want it to be, where I want to be and who I want to be with. I know that if it was all over tomorrow, I have done my best, I have lived my life and if Jim is the one holding my hand, everything is perfect. I know that I will be in good hands through the good and the sad, the new and the ending and everything in between.
Today life has begun for one family and changed for another. I am experiencing emotions for both. I am glad Jim will be home soon so that I can work though it all, as it is just the beginning of so much that is ahead of us.
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